I still remember saying these words out loud..."The enemy can do nothing to me that would make me give up my place in ministry." It was as if I was almost
he hit me so fast and so hard, that I was left breathless...
gasping for air...
looking up at him from the pit he'd thrown me into...
and through the blur of my own tears...
it was as if the enemy was smiling at me...
pleased that he had indeed found what would destroy me.
sneering that he had knocked me right off that pedestal people had put me on.
It was as if satan was taunting me with these words...
"Look at what being a leader gets you. Look at how deep those arrows pierced. You will never heal from these wounds. Ministry is not worth this. Say it. SAY IT! Worshipping God is not worth this type of pain. Reject Him! I will never stop. I will send legions of demons against everyone you love. What do you have to say now? Your fight is weak. Speak up."
he came close.
Closer than I want to remember.
But there is this one thing he must have temporarily forgotten. (Although I am not sure how?!?)
My Daddy is the King.
I am ROY - AL - TY baby.
I was struck down...but I will not be destroyed.
Do you ever look at people in ministry and think..."Yeah, but they are in tune with God. I am sure they don't even struggle. They don't understand what is like to be in my shoes." You aren't alone in those thoughts. I am guilty of subconsciously thinking those things about people that I respect in ministry. I place them on a different playing field completely. It's like I am fighting off lions & tigers & bears in my life and they are off petting puppies who may occasionally "playfully" nibble at their pant leg. The reality is...satan hates us all. He is seeking to devour the human race entirely.
Here is your lightbulb moment for today. The enemy relentlessly pursues those who are effectively reaching out for the cause of Christ. Those who are leading a church. Those who are speaking truth. Those who are raising up a generation to love and worship God. Those who are serving and blessing because of the abundance that God has entrusted them with. satan hates these types of people. And if he can't get to you. If he is running out of tricks and schemes. He will begin to attack the ones that you hold close. Husbands. Wives. Sons. Daughters. Sisters. Brothers. Friends.
he. does. not. care.
he delights in the wicked and casts fear and destruction onto the innocent.
he will do anything to try to destroy your faith in the God that he once worshipped.
he is in forever torment and he constantly schemes on how to bring the world down with him.
So what is the difference between those who walk as if nothing phases them and those who feel they get nothing right?
We can see ourselves as victims or we can see ourselves as victors.
We can choose to magnify the struggle or we can choose to magnify the Savior.
We can whine or we can worship.
By not choosing...I guarantee we are choosing. It is not likely that we are going to be Godly by accident.
The difference? Those Christ followers that you most respect...ARE absolutely struggling BUT they are FIGHTING! They are stubborn in their faith and they are not giving up! They are unwilling to let the enemy define them. They are refusing to lay down and die at the hand of darkness. They have known what it is to be in plenty and what it is to be in want...and they know that Hope is closer than the enemy leads them to think. And in their own suffering...they are still warring with anyone that God places on their path. Because it is THEN that they realize it is He that is strong even when they are weak.
Sit down and talk testimonies with people in your circle of influence. Listen to how God used each trial in their life to build their faith. Get real. Be vulnerable. Cry if you need to. But always let God be the one who gets the glory for the victory! Invite them to pray over you and watch as Hope becomes the Light you are chasing after. God has big plans for this mess you are in.
Do. Not. Give. Up. The. Fight.
"Then I heard a loud voice in heaven say: "Now have come the salvation and the power and the kingdom of our God, and the authority of his Messiah. For the accuser of our brothers and sisters, who accuses them before our God day and night, has been hurled down. They triumphed over him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony; they did not love their lives so much as to shrink from death." Revelation 12:10-11